Thank God for good friends! A night without kids. I don’t even know what to do with myself. When I told my girlfriend (who has so graciously offered to keep the girls for the night) that I plan to first head to the gym she asks, “On your night without kids that’s what you’re going to do? Go to the gym?” I answered, “Exactly – go to the gym, WITHOUT kids.” While I am incredibly thankful that our base offers a facility with both workout equipment for me, and a playground for the kids, it is still not the same as going to the gym to work out and totally dedicate myself to the task at hand. I am forever aware and even distracted by what the girls are doing. As I run on the treadmill, I watch. I constantly watch. I count; one, two three….one, two, three…one, two, you get the idea. It is working out in pseudo-insanity, paranoia-ridden state. So tonight a quick 5K accompanied by the indulgence of wearing headphones seemed like bliss!
I could not decide what to do with the rest of my evening and wrestled between going to the movies and going fishing. I took the girls fishing last night (I am sure to have a much longer and more thoroughly detailed separate blog about that disaster later) and thought it might be nice to go alone tonight and get a little solo practice in before our next attempt at the life aquatic. In the end I decided to come home, draw a bath, pour a glass of wine and start a new book. After my relaxing soak I rented “The Road” on Direct TV and although I should have been prepared having already read Cormac MaCarthy’s apocalyptic downer I still found myself in clenching my teeth in anxiety wanting to hold my girls close to me.
And that leaves me here. Still only a little after midnight so I know my insomnia will keep me up for at least a few more hours, and I am unsure what to do with myself. There is so much to be done and so little motivation to do it. I know it has been forever since I blogged. I would apologize for such a lapse only I am not really sure who that apology would go to. I guess anyone who might be curious for an update. I have wanted to write so many nights and have simply not been able to put my blog high enough on my priority list for it to happen in a long time. I feel somehow guilty taking time away from my other obligations to write.
Ah and there is the answer! My phone just beeped to notify me that I have a text message. I am almost certain it is the hubby with a request for me to call him. There is something so odd about getting a text message from Afghanistan. I’m not sure why that is. Just the notion of all those little letters traveling through cyberspace from one country nearly a world away all coming together to form coherent words and meaning on my little phone resting on the bed seems somehow magical. I will give an update and list excuses for my long absence. I will, but right now I must call my hubby! And then to bed – maybe I will even sleep in tomorrow – what a crazy thought!
The New Gal In town....
13 years ago
Hope you had a good run by yourself. I have missed your blogs. I thought about doing one on our NJ bike rides. I have the first one picked out. We are going to go to Liberty Park and then take the boat across to the Statue of Liberty.
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